It's been too long...

Hey guys so it's been like forever and a year since I have posted abutting to my blog :(

Currently I'm on a major YouTube block/break which ever way you would like to put it. My two year anniversary is coming up so I will definitely be uploading. The last couple of months have been amazing my subscribers have been growing like never before. Tha Lyon so much.

In other news I have finally started running. About time since summer is coming up and I live in short shorts. Can't be having my legs looking nothing less then great. I actually love the burn of exercise so I'm very happy.

I have been working quite a lot lately when it comes to shoots ect which exhausts me more then running a marathon.

If your from the UK and are currently in college you will be aware that it's dooms day tomorrow. A level exam results are coming out. Not looking forward to it, I have told my friends to be on suicide watch.

Mums going away end of this week so I'll get to relax atleast.

How's your week been?

Memories that haunt you...

A few of days ago my friend added a couple of pictures that we took on the last day of college.  That day was the beginning of a weekend I still remember.  Looking back at those photos I look genuinely happy, which does not happen often in photos.  Thinking about it now the only other photo where I look really happy is one taken with my best friend but the reasons behind my happiness still circulate around the same reason. I cant exactly remember how I felt it seems like a blur to me.

It’s a shame that those happy moments only last for such a short period of time, but the sadness that comes after can feel like it engulfs your existence.  Those happy memories can haunt you and remind you that you will never have that moment again with that person or in that situation.  Easiest thing to do is to push those thoughts away and keep yourself busy with other things right?  Well, yes it is but the thing is that when you loose someone everything seems to remind you of them.  The stupidest, smallest insignificant things can completely send you over the edge.

I don’t know where I’m going with this, clearly.  Actually what I want to get across is that sometimes its better to cling to the good things and see them as positives and try to remember how happy you were and seek for that same feeling in some other form.  You will never erase your memories but they will slowly fade and be less vivid in your mind.  You will loose lots of those little details that cause a sting every time you think about it.  You will replace those with other memories that are longer lasting because they are more mature and mean much more to you.

Something that could of seemed extremely significant two, four, six months ago or even a year ago will appear irrelevant and minuscule.  You will fall in love with new things, music, people.  You will meet amazing individuals that will surpass any ‘benchmark’ that may have been set by the ones in the past.  Life is way too short to let yourself waste time being upset and not embracing the fact that you are fortunate enough to be still alive. 

Time fades everything...

It's been too long my amazing bloggies (yes we're making that a word).
I'm very sorry I haven't updated in a while but it's just been the usual Christmas craziness. You know that feeling.
I hope everyone had great holidays :)
All the best for the new year and I hope your sticking I your resolutions!

I haven't been very inspired to write lately but I feel like I have something I need to get off my chest. I'm writing this at 22:41 hoping I will be able to rest after I'm done.

If you read my blog you know I get a little deep/emotional from time to time. Well get prepared there's more coming your way.

Its amazing how caught up in the moment you can get. Whether its how you feel or what you think it's all too easy to escalate that in your own mind way too far. You my think you feel something very strong when really its just that moment in time. It eventually dies down to nothing. Well not nothing but close enough. I am one to try to suppress my feelings and avoid bothering people about it just because I don't want to seem like an annoying moany girl!

But sometimes it's good to have a rant. Why I blog about my feelings too actually. So the point of this blog is to get across that it gets better. Why I've been saying from the beginning about true friends sticking around and not being able to inflict pain upon you is still true. There are so many 'negligible' people that will be in your life and at that moment in time their significance will seem much more important to you. Don't worry about them. If someone hurt you and is not caring enough to apologise then why bother. It's jut not worth it.

Saying that always give people a second chance in your life. Even if you have had the worst fight imaginable things won't seem so bad in a month, a year or ten. Don't give up on people that have not given up on wanting to mend things with you. Life isn't perfect. You will have fights with your best friends and think you will never make it up but somehow for some reason you always do. It gets better trust me...

Glitter, British Music Scene and other things this week

So this week has definitely been a slow one.  Nothing too exiting happening.  Just trying to finish up college and start the holidays.

Onto things that I’ve been loving this week:

I'm actually having to think quite hard about this…

Got one!

My fur coat - Fake fur that is.  I don’t believe in real fur but that’s a whole other post.  Me and my friends have collectively come up with the name Phantom for it.  It keeps my very warm I can literally wear a T-shirt and shorts under it and I will be fine.

Glitter - I'm certainly feeling festive so anything glitter is just orgasm worthy for me at the moment.  Shoes, bags, nails are just a few examples.  I have been sporting bedazzled nails for the last two weeks.

My shorter hair – I have but off about 8 inches of my hair in the last few months and I do miss the long hair but I feel like the shorter hair looks a bit more grown up and just less typical really. 

Dark lips – I have been obsessed with the Rimmel Lipstick in the ‘Kate Collection’ that is a dark purple.  I havent purchased it but I have found a lip liner that’s similar just a little more on the red side.  Its from L.A. colours and its super creamy so I can wear it as a lipstick.  I am wearing it it in the video.

Favorite song – Professor Green ‘Into the Ground’.  Not everyones cup if tea but I just find this song funny and it can really lift my mood.  If you havent realised yet I am obsessed with Professor Green.  UK artists have been doing amaizing in the last few years. One more song I need to mention is Example ‘Microphone’.  Love it!

Stuff that irritated me this week:

The fact that I am broke as hell until next Thursday!

People that make me feel so uncomfortable I could be physically sick around them…

That’s about it.  So not so bad this week ehh? HAHAHA

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Have you put up your Christmas lights yet? Because I haven't.



Tips on Getting Over Break-ups

So when ou break up usually seems like the worst thing in the world. You don't want to wake up in the morning and just wish you could stop existing, so you don't have to think about what you may have lost. Every time you see that person you get a sting and wish you could go up to them and have them kiss and hold you. You don't think this feeling will ever go away because every time you speak to them all those wishes come back to you. Well surprise surprise I promise that it all gets better.

Those feelings eventually go away. The time it takes for them depends on how you are wish the person after the break up. The best tip is to try and cut contact with them. I realise that's very hard and not possible in every situation I.e. school but it's the best way. The less you see of them or speak to them the less you are reminded of why you liked them in the first place.

If you cannot do that then I suggest being very 'cool' in a sense that you just keep your relationship to a basic friendship. You say hi and bye and have conversation when you are at a table together but avoid texting them or flirting in any way possible.

The issue of wanting them back is hard to tackle. If you broke up with them because of your wants then you have to remind yourself of why it happened. If they broke up with you because they 'didint feel the same' or if you broke up with them because you knew this then just remember that they are not worth your company. You are not their convenience that they can request to use whenever it suits them.

Remember loving your own company is probably the best thing you can do for yourself in life. You are the I ly person that you will have by your side every second of everyday of the duration of your life. There is no running away from you. So if you are happy with your own company then you don't have to feel inclined to have another person to make you happy.

Travelling, Tea and Annoying People

Last week I failed to update since I was travelling.  So here's an update for the last two weeks really.

I was away for five days to visit my grandma in Lithuania.  It was her birthday which meant that I was eating birthday cake for three days straight.  That also means I'm back on my diet.  

Here are some pictures I took at my grandmothers house:

 yes its a boombox. i know epic!

the christmas tree at our city

I forgot how much I love that house.

Things I loved this week (two really):

The fact that Christmas is coming, I have been feeling very festive lately and probably going to put up some decorations today.

I have been drinking lots of tea.  Whilst I was away that seemed to be the drink of choice.  I usually like fruit and herbal teas but I was being very English and having black tea and milk at my grandmas.  The Twinning’s Camomile, Vanilla and Honey is amazing.  No sugar needed.  But enough about tea (I’m clearly obsessed over here)

The quality of video when filming with the iPhone 4.  I got this phone a week ago and filmed a few videos already and I can truly say I am not going back to my little camera.  Here’s a tutorial if you want to check out the quality (click here.)

I once again have to say my friends.  The more times goes on the more I appreciate the real ones in my life.  I also wrote a post on this issue (click here.)

Song of the week is definitely ‘Let Me Show You’ by Maverick Sabre. Amazing all I need to say.  I can listen to this whatever mood I might be in.

Things I didn’t like so much this week:

People that are not aware of what a queue is at the airport whilst waiting to board.  Not cool.

People that have mood swings at me.  Just f**k out. (pardon my language is just this REALLY irritates me)

The fact that my bestie is ill and has been for days now. Get better babe.

Question for the week:

What do you do to get better when your ill?

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True friends, Forgiveness and Letting Go

Only those who you truly care for can hurt you. The difference between a true friend: one that will be there for you no matter what happens or how you are and someone who is just there for a short period of time is in how they treat you. Only a true and real friend can accept your apology and never hurt you back in return. Someone who is only there temporarily won't understand how you feel or value your 'sorry'. They will make you feel awful about it and not be able let it go. A real friend will look past the mistake you may have made and  forgive you because they know your heart. The ones that you can forgive and forgive you are the ones that are going to be sticking around. Whether its the fact that there is a connection between you two or the fact that they know your heart to it's deepest; please don't spend our time on ones who can't let go.